CVS

Considering the fact that being a cardiologist is one of my career choices, I know I should've done waaaay better on this module than any other. But for some reason... it didn't quite work out that way.

The CVS module was separated into 2 tests and, as JC pointed out, mahirap kasing mag-aral para sa CVS kasi alam mong last test na siya. Tipong, nasa bakasyon na yung utak mo. Which is, sadly, true. I had a hard time studying weekend before CVS1 and even for CVS2. In fairness, hindi lang ako. Some of my classmates are also tired of studying already. (Naghanap ng karamay eh, noh? :p)

Tapos ewan ko bakit, pero madalas na ring sumakit yung ulo ko. Maybe because of chronic lack of sleep (huh?) or stress or just plain tired... I dunno. But lately, ever since Respiratory module (module right before CVS), not a single study weekend has passed that my head hasn't ached.

And, bad trip pa, last Saturday, I was tired and wanted to sleep but I couldn't coz I needed to study, so I did. I finally couldn't take it when 12 rolled around so I went to sleep then. At around 3-330, guess what? My stupid gastritis acted up again. Not even the going-to-the-bathroom kind of pain. All I got was the spasming pain. How annoying, I got the pain, minus the associated symptoms. Coz usually if one expels things when one's stomach hurts, then the pain usually lessens, right? Well, didn't happen to me coz I didn't even have LBM or didn't even throw up. I felt like throwing up, though, and retched one time (medical definition of retched: act of vomiting [spasming, contraction of stomach & esophagus] 'xept w/o the vomitus content) and that made me feel slightly better but otherwise... hello cramping epigastric pain. Ugh.

But I was tired and sleepy, so what could I do? The pain kept me up... when it eased somewhat (around 5), I was able to sleep. Kaso mababaw lang kasi medyo sumusulput pa rin siya. At around 730, nagising na rin ako. I told my parents about it and said that it was exactly just like the pain I had before, except not as severe. I tried to study, but my brain was too tired from lack of sleep that, guess what, it began aching again.

With no choice left, I slept late Sunday night but took the test in a sabog state of mind. Haaaaay. After the test, I went to my doctor to ask wassup since, hello, I take my medications and stuff so what's the big, right? How come my tummy ached again that night? Doc said there could be other causes... like maybe an ulceration or whatever and that to check it, I can opt to have an endoscopy done. Endoscopy? Yeah, right, forget it! She also said that I should have it scheduled after my exams (I told her I had finals) unless I want to have endoscopy done without anesthesia. I said forget it if there's no anesthesia. She said that if I had anesthesized endoscopy done during my exams, I might forget what I studied. She also gave me additional medication to take 'as needed' if ever my tummy acts up again. And I certainly hope it doesn't!

Anyway, I guess that's the plan now. If ever my tummy acts up again (it better not!), I'm sure I'll find myself having a tube stuck down my throat. Which I'd really want to avoid at all possible costs.

Ugh. Of all the systems in the body to get whack, why did it have to be my gastrointestinal tract? It's the ickiest of things to diagnose and have tested and all that. I mean, if I got sick, why not any other organ system except gastro? Ugh.

Anyway, CVS finals tomorrow... and I'm sure it'll be hellish. And tomorrow is just the beginning...

Also, just finished the second PD practical exam today. Dati, kina-career ko siya, ngayon hindi na. Na-bad trip kasi ako sa midsem grade ko eh. I mean, I totally know I passed all the wardworks (kinareer ko na nga yung lectures, mababait pang mga precep natatapat sa akin) and if you average my evals, it certainly won't be the same as my midsem grade, so why oh why is my midsem like that?

And another subject, medicine... can you believe only three people in the class (sabi nila) passed their midsems? I mean, hello, three?!! Out of 90-100 students, only three?!! Where in heaven's name did they get their computations for the grades?! So weird.

Nakakawalang gana tuloy. Parang, here I thought I'd have gotten high in PD, Surgery, and Medicine and I end up not getting the grades I expected. How sucky is that? Nawalan tuloy ako ng gana. Especially sa PD, parang ayoko na i-career.

Anyway, I know I shouldn't feel this way. I mean, it's just one bump on the road, right? A little stumbling block and stuff. Yeah... I shouldn't let it affect me. Can't help it, though. But, yeah, I'm working on it :)