(been a while since I last used Smiley Central)

Post Hell Week

Yay!

Hell week is over. And I've got to look forward to another one next week. Haaaay. When will it ever end? We've reached midsem and the evaluations are piling and the finals are beginning and everyone seems to want to spread the ~cheer~ by giving out long exams once or twice a week.

I'm beginning to dislike pharmacology. Just finished the test and unless the department lowers the MPL (m-something passing l-something; yeah, I know, a lot of help I am), I don't think I really passed that. Still, can't really be sorry about that. See, I couldn't read the last year's transcription since they had a different prof last year and I couldn't use this year's power point file since, ugh, Doc Alvero didn't write anything of imporance in it! I mean, hello? "Alkylating agents" as title and a big blank slide as the rest of the info. What am I supposed to study there? And during the little snippets in time during the lec that I actually heard her (so sue me, I was tired from integs and patho slides and studying for module 4 evaluations), she was rattling off drug names too fast for me to catch. Not that I tried. Not really. But that's beside the point, right? How am I to know how they spell those things. Methotrexate, cyclosphosphamide, taxoclime or whatever they're all called. So many medications for chemotherapy, so little time.

Anyway, off to happier things... uh... I've got a semi-light week this week, with a semi-light evals on Monday. Yay me!

Older And Wiser (?)

Birthday's coming up... for some weird reason, this year, I just want a low-key celebration - if at all. Like, for me, this year, birthdays and graduations just seem to be another day out of the 365 days a year we get. Don't really feel like making a big deal out of it or anything. I'm not even asking for any gifts, although if you ask my family, I'm sure they'll rattle off a couple of things I asked for them during this year that they'll probably designate as my 'advance' bday gift/s. I'd just like to clear the record though: I did not ask for a gift. And mostly what I ask money for are, well, my vices in my life: books (quite a bit of them), dvds (some), and cds. Besides, it was summer, the dry cash season, what was I to do? (and if someone says "don't buy anything" you can shut it :p)

Aaaaanyway, like I said, I dunno. Maybe as you grow up (I don't like to use the word 'older'), things change? Perceptions change. Not just about birthdays, but about things that you thought were important or something. I'm ok with just hanging out with my fam or friends, doesn't need to be an outing or anything. What I tell my parents is that I'd rather use the money elsewhere. Like my medical books and supplies. And some minuscule additional payment for my tuition. Y'know, other things in life that I have to pay for. 'Sides, my parents have given me quite a lot already (med school... med books/supplies... entertainment stuff... anything I need for school) and I'm more than okay with all that already.

Study-Free Bday Weekend

For my past two birthdays, I've had to study for tests, and I'm really looking forward to a birthday weekend where I don't have to study. Hey, just because I want a low-key birthday doesn't mean I don't feel some sort of excitement that I'm aging. Granted, I have to study for Bioethics but, really, do you really do serious studying for that?

Anyway, my HP6 book is still with a friend, not entirely sure which, but I'm sure I'll get my hands back on it by the weekend. Heck, I'm making sure. They can borrow again after, but I definitely want it in my hands for this weekend.

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

I've been getting those girly urges lately... to do something with my hair. Why do girls have those urges? Yknow, like, after some time, a girl looks at her reflection or she's combing her hair or something and she just has this... urge... to do something different with her hair. Anyway, I don't want to cut it since I like long hair and it takes too long to grow it. And I'm trying very hard to avoid streaking it again since I told myself that I miss my all-black hair and I'd like to grow out the streaks and stick to black once more. Even for a little while. But my hair-style-change-urges are kicking in again. I'm thinking... streaking it dark blue or violet. I'd really want to go with pink or green, or a lighter blue but, hello, I'm in med. They might kick me out for not looking dignified or something. Either that or I'd do up my hair in dreadlocks again. Or maybe try to find a parlor that does cornrows. Either way, methinks this weekend will be a pamper-the-tired-med-student-by-dragging-her-sorry-ass-to-a-parlor weekend. Still unsure what I'll do. Or maybe I'll just do them all. Yknow, streak (coz I don't want to dye my entire head) and dreadlocks/cornrows. Whatever. We'll see.

All I know is, this weekend, I want to spend it loving me. Just good 'ol down time for little 'ol me.

Speaking of little... at my age, is it still silly of me to wish I were a wee bit taller? ;p