Not-So-Random Ramblings

"Do you know what it's like to be a true believer, to cling to an idea even when the possibility of its becoming a reality has dwindled to nothing? You can get bludgeoned with the facts, your faith can waver, you can feel like an idiot, but you never really let it go because it's become part of your definition of the world. And then it actually comes to pass, and you're stunned because maybe the chasm between what the world is and what you want it to be has shrunk by one millimeter? You know what I'm saying? Because I don't."
page 135 of "Tw7sted" by Jessica Zafra

That bit just struck me. Coz really, how many times has that happened to me? Lately, though, the first part reminds me of how I so believe End of Days is just around the corner. But 'nuff about that; I mean, how many times have I posted that particular opinion of mine?

But really, that paragraph there from Jess Zafra's latest struck me.

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My DPT shot still hurts and when you press against my upper arm, it's kind of... hard. And the shot looks like a pimple. All pink and small and semi-protruding. How does one get this over with? It's very hard to sleep since I usually sleep on my side and I switch throughout the night from my left and right. Now, I'm just forced to sleep on my right side because my left hurts. And I can't lie down long on my back coz my back hurts when I do that (blasted sciolosis). And when I lie down on my tummy, it also hurts my back. So, really, sleep now is pain-filled.

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My body refuses to lose weight. I hate it. It's so disobedient. Whatever I do, it sticks to my fats like a leech. Ugh.

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Watched Bram Stocker's Dracula last night, the version with Gary Oldman, Winona Ryder, Keanu Reeves, and Anthony Hopkins. I just read from http://imdb.com that Winona didn't like Gary and wanted all their shots together to be as short as possible. Man, I wonder why she didn't like him? Good thing that lack of chemistry didn't show up in the movie. It must be hard to be kissing a guy you don't like. And I kind of wish they got a different Dracula. I mean, Gary Oldman is a fantastic actor (good work in Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban, although I always get confused as to which role did he play: Black or Lupin), but he's... not cute enough.

Anyway, the point of this is that Cary Elwes, who plays the Lord that is engaged to Winona's friend named Lucy. I can never quite imagine him as anything else. Every single time I see him, I see Robin Hood in the spoof version (Robin Hood: Men In Tights). Whenever I see his face or hear him speak, I see in my mind his line "Because unlike other Robins, I can speak with an English accent".