August 10, 2004

I spent the whole night, Saturday night, just reading a book. Imagine that. And on Sunday, insomnia hit me – again and on Monday, I had to do an assignment for Anatomy. I’ve been functioning with minimal sleep for the past three days and today… man, after class, after dinner, I just fell and slept. I was only supposed to nap for about an hour (yeah right!) but ended up sleeping until 9:30pm. In fact, I would’ve slept until morning if it weren’t for the fact that I had some school stuff to do.

“School stuff” being a relative term, of course. Have to design and do a poster for HBAA organization, fix the histology pictures I took and hopefully be able to load them on our group’s groups, and then maybe see if Gia’s up so that I could show her the ticket design I did. And I was hoping to still have time to continue making a reviewer for the upcoming evals on Monday. The last one is something I doubt I’d be able to do today, but at least I want to and I’d try to. But we’ll see how things go.

Last Saturday night, I was amazed. I was able to stay up, reading, until 5am. Isn’t it amazing how one can easily pull an almost-all-nighter with a pocketbook and yet be too sleepy to study textbooks when 2am hits? If only I could be like this while studying my texts. Although after numerous experiences with all-nighters, I think I’d stick to daytime studying, thanks. My brain demands sleep and has no qualms letting that fact be known, at the expense of my studies. And anything that is at the expense of my studies isn’t really something I’d want to explore on a regular basis...

On other things... I’ve been listening to Lea Salonga lately. Man, she’s really good! I wish I could sing like her. Although I wish that she was nicer, personality-wise. I’ve seen her in the Philippines, in person, for maybe about two or three times and she definitely keeps to herself and doesn’t want to be approached. She did admit on interviews that she’s “antipatika” but, really, don’t you think you should shelve that because you’re an internationally famous star? People would stare, duh. And I remember watching an interview where she said that she wasn’t comfortable whenever she’s here because she feels the “fishbowl effect” wherein wherever she goes, people stare. Duh! Do the words “world famous international star” mean anything to her? And even if it maybe didn’t because it IS her, then maybe she’d try to understand that she’s one of the few people known to the world that brings Pinoys proud. Of course people would stare. Plus, she’s always in the USA. And I’ve been to maybe also two or three of her concerts and the tickets are usually dreadfully expensive (more expensive than your normal), and she just sings a couple of her songs for maybe an hour or two at most. I’ve watched other performers, both foreign and local, and they usually have a set that lasts at least three hours with cheaper ticket prices, compared to Lea. Still, I may not personally like her (as if I know her personally; but you know what I mean) but when she sings… she sure can “teach the world to sing” :p

I wonder what it would be like to be blessed like that. And, had I been Lea, would I have chosen the singing career or maybe done both singing and professional career or would I have to choose and give up one for the other? Because, in an interview, she said that if she wasn’t a singer, she’d be a doctor. I wonder if I had been blessed with an amazing talent where a career would be an option, what would I have done? In some ways, I guess I’m glad I don’t. I can’t imagine having two dreams and, as a kid (coz kids are still capable of reaching for the stars), dreaming of obtaining both but realizing that only one passion is possible as you grow up. It must hurt some… especially to someone like me who would love to do everything and anything and would try to do all those to the best of my abilities. As it is, I guess I’m lucky then that I don’t really have anything. I mean, sure, I like singing but singing sure as hell don’t like me. I like dancing, but I don’t think dancing will like the fact that my body can’t contort itself well. So guess God really does have a plan for everyone :)