My family and I were eating dinner as usual when the topic of... sensitivity (for lack of a better word) came up. I would call it 'psychic' but that's not the exact term, either.

Friends (and some acquiantances) know that I read Tarot cards, palms, and sometimes handwritings (although I'm not very good at that). These things - fortune telling, dream interpretation, etc - interest me. Not that I'm interested in the occult, for I don't think of them as 'occult' stuff since, for me, 'occult' sounds so... coven-ish. Which I'm not into. I think they're more... uncanny. Like this book I borrowed from a friend entitled "Almanac of The Uncanny" - very interesting.

Anyway, to fortune tell, for me, is something that I do for fun. If it's true or sounds true, I'm as excited as the person I'm reading for. People often ask how I do and I never really know what to reply to that. Maybe the only people who would understand are those who also do some readings for others, any kind of "fortune telling". It's a feeling in your gut... and then you try to put it in words and you're never really sure what the reading really means until you've put words to it. In David Eddings' books, the calls that using the Word to define the Event. Because without the Word, an Event is just simply that: an event. Maybe that's also how it is in fortune telling. You read for someone... you get a feeling, sometimes it's strong and sometimes it's not... and it's up to the reader to try and put words to it. And you'll know when you've used the right words because they strike a chord in you.

Well... waddya know? LOL I managed to put words to how it is. But usually, my answer is just: I just get... feelings.

Deja vu is a term used to imply one experiencing something that they're sure they've experienced before. I've experienced this and I'm sure others have too. Some say deja vu is that you've dreamt what is happening. Others say that it must be because of your past life. Since most people I know rarely remember their dreams, it's up to them to pick which explanation suits them. However, I often do remember my dreams so I'm sure my deja vu experiences are related to dreams (although if I lived before, I'd sure want to know about it).

I take all these for fun. It's not that I believe in them or that I don't believe in them... it's just that I like to believe that there are things in these word that really can't be explained. Maybe it's from God, maybe it's not. But isn't it interesting to entertain the idea that there's a wider world out there that nobody understands?

Some would probably see some of the things I do as satanic, evil... but I don't think it is. I wouldn't dare presume that it all came from God, thereby making all those things that I do "holy" or whatever. It's just something I do. People can believe it if they want to. All I know is that... I do get these feelings... these twinges of intuition... and if that, in any way, can help others, why should I stop? And I don't read for anybody who doesn't want to, anyway, so I'm not forcing them on my beliefs. I'm not even forcing them to believe. I'm doing it because I want to... because others want me to... what they do with the information I give is entirely up to them. Besides, it's not like I remember every single reading I do so even if they ask me about it, my normal response would be, "Huh? What did I say then ba?"