My birthday came and went and I didn’t ask anything from my parents. Nahihiya na kasi ako since they give me so much. And they were also spending quite a bit right now. And we all know money isn’t an infinite resource although we might wish it otherwise.

I wanted, but never really expected to have, a Playstation 2 or an Xbox (one of those I-wish-I-had-but-I-know-I-won’t). Everybody says that PS2 has more games but I’m not really into games, I just want the three games of LOTR… and maybe other movies. Heh. Like Van Helsing, Final Fantasy (it was a movie), and others; I wanted the RPG variety of games. And the main reason why I suddenly had the idea of wanting one was because LOTR games are only available on those and not in N64 because if it was, then I’d be content with our N64-that-I-rarely-get-to-touch-coz-it’s-in-my-brother’s-room-and-he-doesn’t-even-play…often.

And I actually preferred an Xbox coz everybody has a PS2 and I so don’t want what the masses have :p Like our N64, my cousins gave that to us and they asked us to choose between an N64 and a PS but I was a total Mario person and didn’t like following the masses, so we ended up with an N64 (my brother had no preference… at that time).

But then my friends told me that Final Fantasy can only be found in PS2 and that Xbox doesn’t have it. So… it looks like I’m gravitating towards PS2… against my wishes to steer clear of mass-loved consoles.

Ina suggests Gamecube because the Mario games are excellent but if I can get those for N64, then it’s not so bad, right? And I kind of like RPG games, really. Maybe some races too… but that’s pretty much it. And PS2 games are so easy to get. My gosh, I was just in Ruins last week and I saw a LOTR:TTT PS2 game and man, I want that. I mean, see? I can get PS2 games a mere 10-15 minutes away from my home. And at first, I was wanting the original by the original games cost a pretty penny and to complete all LOTR games would cost about… 12k. Yowza. Not including Final Fantasy, which I think I want to complete. So not worth it.

You might think, though, that I’d want to borrow somebody’s PS 2 before giving in and yearning for something like that, eh? But I dunno… like I said, I’m not much of a player-player. I just enjoy the occasional games and, in the heat of a getting to know a game, you can call me an "addict" but once the "magic" wears off… my attention wanders too.

And if I do get a PS2, then where will I put it? At the house? It’ll only probably work with either my brother’s TV or my parents (they have the audio in-and-out; my TV’s way too old and doesn’t have that) and my brother already has the N64 and I don’t want to end up giving him a PS2 on a silver platter. Not that I wouldn't mind sharing it, but, yknow, he's already got the N64!

If it’s in my parents room, then I can’t play all the time because they’ll also want to watch TV and I’ll get the inevitable "Don’t you have to study? How come you’re not studying? How come all you do is play?" mantra.

If I put it in my dorm… I know I can handle the temptation since I think I’m pretty disciplined and, like I’ve mentioned a coupla million times, I don’t get addicted to consoles (at last count, the most I’ve been glued to a console was a week – and that’s coz I was trying to see how far I could go on all Mario games [1-3, land, world] and finish Aladdin; it was our SNES console). But… other people might not be so disciplined :p I don’t mind when people hang in my dorm. But if they hang just to play… I can only take so much, yknow. And if they’re playing when they should be studying… I’ll feel guilty for indirectly causing them to fail. And when I can't study because their playing, screw them LOL

And why should I worry about where I’ll be setting up my non-existent PS2, anyway? Like I said, it’s not like I can have one. I can’t ask my parents coz I think that’s too much and I’m really nahihiya, what with all their expenses this year. I can’t buy on my own coz I don’t have that much money. Yet. I know, I know, I can save for it. But… but… I dunno. Shell out about 10k (I think) for a PS2? I don’t think I’ve ever bought myself anything that expensive at one go. With my money. It’s just… too much. I’ll enjoy having my PS2, true, but every time I’ll play it I’ll remember the amount of money it took to get there. And that’s not counting all the games I want and probably won’t buy because I’m too kuripot to shell out more cash.

LOL I can’t believe I spent one entire blog entry on a wish list. But still… it’s nice to talk about it. Grounds me in reality, yknow? About how it’s definitely just something filed under "wish list" like all my other stuff. I think it’s nice to have a wish list. Kind of… makes me feel like the world hasn’t lost it’s appeal, yknow? That there are stuff I want to have and do and I know I won’t, not in the near future, and it’s nice to just… want.